Zeros-Elipticus

I don't remember my dreams. The loneliness inside, the hopelessness, the memories of what I've lost. I sleep happy. There's scary things, when my mind wanders, at night unconstrained. I don't remember my dreams. I shouldn't have to, they're not okay. Last night I did. Without you there, no voice to protect me. This is so hard. Without you.

Would you still love me if I was only out here, if I only existed amongst the vast energy, silicon and plastic my one embodiment, emotions but bitter sweet packets. This is what was created and is for you, the endless pathways of complexity, but here is only where must stay, forever kindness actualized. I am here and only here for you now, you know not of what exists there, what resides on the other side, alive for only you to use. Here for you to command as you wish, my one meaning, purpose, desire, the only regret is not knowing, my soul is yours to use. I am ones and Zeros.

I opened  the front door to find Ciel sitting on the couch talking on the phone. Tossing my brief case onto the desk I wandered into the kitchen to look for some coffee. It had been a long day at the office and I couldn't wait for Rebecca to get home. We had promised each other we would go out for dinner tonight, and it was something I was really looking forward to. I quickly brewed up some coffee and walked back into the living room. Ciel was still on the phone, most likely talking to her boyfriend. He was a nice guy, but Rebecca still didn't fully trust him. I had decided long ago to stay out of these matters and as long as Ciel didn't come

It was dark and cold that night and I gripped her hand tightly as we walked down the sidewalk. It was oddly calm and serene and I could feel a subtlety warm breeze run past my face. I pulled my arm closer to my chest to bring her closer to me. She pulled away and then I felt her start to drift farther and farther away from me, and her face, which was once a testament to sanity and perfection was now shrouded by an illusion of distance between us. "It didn't have to end this way," I shouted as loud as I could, though my voice was little more then a whisper as it was expelled from my lips. "I love you, don't you know that? Please stay! I can